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* Daughters are Truly a Blessing *



* Daughters are Truly a Blessing *

 Although I have been listening so many long lectures about the hazards of Smoking.. but I’m sure, all the guys out there who smoke' will agree with me that its hell hard to quit smoking.
 I remember, When I went to college..I suddenly became cautious of my looks .. its all because it was a co-education college.. and a guy like me .. who had all his education in a boys school.. was lost in this newly co-education world…. I started taking care of my dressing and looks... and due to so-called late night combined studies.. I got addicted to cigarettes.
 My ammi got so shocked.. she kept on threatening me that she’ll tell my father that I’ve started smoking. I was afraid, I promised her 1000 times that I’ll never burn a cigarette now.. but ‘Wo Wada ki Kia jo Wafa Hojaaye’..!?

 I still don’t know which hidden enemy of mine and the “Assteen ka Saanp” told my father about it.. Though I was in college.. but still he beated me up .. and the irony is.. in so many beating stuff.. He only found my own bat.. That day, I again promised myself that I’ll never buy a single cigarette.. but all my promises ended in vain...what can I do “Chutt’ti nahe hai mu se ye Kafir lagi hui”….
 Time passed in the same Jhik Jhik….After few years..I accidentally fell in Love..I actually had two problems… First, I had to tell that to my parents.. and after that I had to convey it to that 'Maghroor Haseena'.. Its such a painful situation when u burn alone in the fire of love.. I wanted to tell her.. but whatsoever.. I was a 'Shareef bacha'.. I coudn't propose her directly..I was surprised that my parents agreed without any ’Ifs’ and ‘buts’.. and ‘Whys’..
 My prayers showed their right color… and after 2 years she became “Mrs Me” …
 The first promised I made to her was to quit smoking.. but as per past practices, I coudn't fulfill it..We used to argue daily.. no matter.. whats the matter.. that ‘Cigarette’ used to be the main cause of the fight… I tried so hard to quit.. but I was so helpless…
 Two days back… I became Baba of a cute daughter.. I rushed from my office to hospital.. .. When I saw her first time.. I had tears in my eyes.. I was afraid to take that tiny angel in my lap…. I thanked Allah.. I took hundreds of pictures of my sweetheart.. and after many attempts.. I finally managed to take her in my lap..
 My daughter suddenly became the reason of my existence. I kissed on her forehead.. I was so excited and relaxed at the same time...
 I lit the lighter.. I picked the cigarette.. I burnt it.. but I couldn’t take the ‘kush’....! It could be very harmful for my daughter.. even its smoke is very dangerous for health..

 I threw the whole ‘Dabba’ in the dustbin.. and hugged her even more tightly..
 Her Silent Innocent Smile did the Wonder.. Which the Million spoken words couldn’t do..! ..:)
 Haya... Baba lOves you..!!...:)


 Story of a newly born Father..written by *Saira*

Incident – Air Blue Crash



Incident – Air Blue Crash
 Date – 28 July 2010
 Flight- Airblue 202
 One year has passed.. Ammi said its your “Barsi” this week.. I am shattered.. I really want to yell.. I want to cry.. but my eyes are dry.. I cant weep anymore Ali.. I just cant moan any more.. I just cant forget those 4 months of our married life.. those 4 months.. the summary of my whole life.. The full stop on my Smile.. Now I am a widower and a mother of a daughter..!

 How fast the time flew..
 From Miss to Mrs.… From Mrs. to Widower… and now a widow mother..! all in one year..!

 I feel afraid to recall that day.. but I am so helpless… How can I forget 28 July 2010… ??? This day marked scars on my soul..
 That was a fine morning.. You left for airport.. I still remember that u asked me to finish your cup of tea.. I was thinking you must have reached.. I called u again and again.. U didn’t receive.. I just hate this habit of yours.. u never receive my call on the first ring.. I threw my cell.. and switched on the TV..
 Morning Shows.. Film.. Cooking show.. Drama.. I had so many choices..While switching the channels.. I got stunned… my hands shivered.. Islamabad… rainy weather..Margalla Hills.. air blue crash… crashed..?!
 My husband… Ali….seat number J 21..
 I fainted..
 I didn’t know what to do.. I got paralyzed.. I became dumb.. I prayed a lot.. and after few hours.. your name started blinking on the screen.. U survived…. U died..!?
 I was such a liar.. I used to say that I’ll die without you.. see how stubborn I am.. my heart still beats.. I still breathe.. I am still alive..
 Seems like time has stopped..
 That air blue crash left so many emotional scars on my soul… I am alive.. I am dead.. I live daily.. I die daily.. I feel like coming to you.. but this little Dua stops me to do so..!
 Ali..We have a daughter now.. I named her “Dua-e-Ali”.. she is your Dua… Dua is Just like you.. Same smile.. same eyes.. same forehead..I scatter into pieces.. when someone calls Dua “Orphan”.. Ali, come back… you daughter has started saying baba.. baba..

 Ali, I cant face this world.. I need you.. Only you..! Ali….! I am so alone.. kill this loneliness…receive my call… hold Dua in your arms.. hold my hand and give me a tight hug.. I miss you..I need you.. I need your shoulders to cry on … Without you… I am nothing.. I am blind, I am deaf, I am dumb.. I am paralyzed.. Come back.. Come back..! I need my smile back..
 Shivers go through my spine whenever I think of your funeral… I am a bird in a cage.. I wana fly.. Lemme fly..

 *Every night in my dreams
 I see you, I feel you
 That is how I know you go on.

 Far across the distance
 and spaces between us
 You have come to show you go on*

 [A true story of a 23 years old widow mother…]

 Dear all,
 I am the writer.. Its one of our fan's story.. she shared it with me..May Allah give her patience and shower His blessings to little Dua. Ameen
 It turned out to be the most difficult writing for me
 *Saira*

This wait KilLs me.. It Literally kilLs me..


This wait KilLs me.. It Literally kilLs me..
 I am alone sitting on computer on this cold dark night… Its raining outside..
 My wife was waiting for our son’s call.. He said he’d call... This wait kills me.. it literally kills me…
 I remember when I was born.... Mirza Sikandar threw a huge party..
 When I was 5 … my amma left the village for me.. she wanted me to go to school. My father seconded her.. so they came to city for my education…
 I remember how my parents lived without food, without clothes, without shelter… just for the sake of my good schooling!
 I remember.. when I was 18, my mother sold her all gold on cheap rates as it was my wish to go abroad..
 This abroad killed me.. it literally killed me..
 It was a dreamy world.. I met Jessica..I married her… I forgot my past.. I forgot my parents.. I forgot to go back.. I forgot to send money to amma so that she could buy that gold again..!!!
 I forgot she was waiting for me with her arms wide opened and with her eyes full of tears.. then she died..I offered Fatiha.. I was sad.. but I couldn't go.. I just couldn't go back.. I was stuck .. badly stuck.. in that dream... in that fantasy... I forgot my baba was waiting for my strong shoulders to cry on….wheres my baba..? He must have died too?!
 I am too old now …. I am wating for my son.. my beloved son.. he said 3 months back that he’d call us.. Y he always forgets his old mother is waiting for him with her arms wide open.. and i am waiting for his strong shoulders to cry on...
 This wait KilLs me.. It Literally kilLs me..
 I want to cry …..but …. My tears are dry..
 Probably it is “Makafat-e-Amal”..!!! ??

 [ ** Saira beti.. merey jazbat ko lafz dena takey ye young generation jaan ley aur meri tarhan na bhatkay, jub na sar pe maa ka saya hai.. na saharay k liye aulad**
 ---Dear Uncle Mirza Affan, I tried my best to give words to ur feelings.. but I really couldn’t do justice..sorry for that!
 * Saira*]

* Eid Day..! Please Pass Soon...*



* Eid Day..! Please Pass Soon...*
 07:00 am... Alarm + Amma's Voice : Jaldi uthho.. Jaldi uthho..
 08:00 am : Baba & brothers went out for Namaz... Ammi : Ye karo..wo karo... Dusting, washing utensils.. logged in facebook.. put status... Ammi's voice…: Foran chor do laptop... I ran..
 10:00 am : brothers orders , Kheer k bajaye.. trifel bana leteen.. yaar plate to la k do.. ketchup kahan hai... Chaye nahe banaye ab tuk..? Nahe Nahe.. Pehlay Chaaye.. phir Green tea..
 Baba : beta itni cheeni .. bagher cheeni ki chaaye laao.. I ran again..
 Ammi : Jaldi salad banao… …baba ko kabab de aao pehlay..
 01:00 pm : Door bell rang.. expected guest were at the gate.. I wanted to cry.. but in a very “Hashash bashash” tone, I greeted them ..
 Left Right march started again… setting dining table.. running from kitchen to dining room.. and hearing brothers orders…”Aise nahe aise”…. “Cake k Square pieces bana lo”… “Kia karo gi yaar tum susral ja k… Oouiii.. abhi tak tum ne pepsi fridge mein hi nahe rakhi”.. I was about to gave him a tight lecture.. ammi yelled from kitchen..
 I ran : “Waheen atki ko abhi tuk”… ye rakho.. wo rakho…
 Guests and the gents of my house were having the luspicious lunch… I took laptop in my room.. but as usual…. Battery Low..! huh
 I went infront of mirror.. I was typically depicting the “Maasi hulya”… I saw my hands.. No mehndi.. No Churian… I just wanted to have a calm sleep.. but again younger brother came in …”Ammi keh rahe hein bartan dhho k rakho.. she is very tired”.. I was about to cry…
 My ammi never calls maid on Eid day.. y would she call..? She knows that its my chutti today.. and that’s the best time in the year.. when she makes me learn to serve guests.. and to do home chores all day..:(
 It’s 04:00 pm now.. m so damn tired.. and as usual I am searching for my net friends… no one is online to talk with..
 Sisters are for sharing laughter and wiping tears….for sharing childhood memories and grown-up dreams….
 Eid Day always make me cry.. I always badly feel the need of a sister this day.. Work distributed.. worries distributed… …. I think people that have a sister don't realize how lucky they are…
 I need someone to share my Churian and Mehndi… Someone to share all what I have….

 A companion to whom you can express your feelings,
 She doesn’t let you get bored at family dealings.
 Whether you are having your ups or downs,
 She always helps you with a smile and never frowns.

 Like every year.. the bunch of bangles and mehndi shall remain on my dressing table for a long period…& after that ammi will shift them into cabinet.. boxes of unpacked bangles are piled up now.. and so many cone mehendis are waiting for their turn to be sprinkled on my hands…
 *Saira*

*I am not ME anymore.. I am YOU... Totally You *



*I am not ME anymore.. I am YOU... Totally You *

 Have u ever been in Love..? Its horrible.. Isn’t it..?? It makes you so weak.
 & the irony is I am in Love.. Madly in love …This stupid love opened up my heart and You got inside and you messed up my whole world. I became "A Little me -A little You.."
 I built up all defenses; I built up a whole suit of armor, so that no one could hurt me.. but one stupid person, no different from other stupid persons walked into my stupid life. I gave him the whole ME, he didn't even ask for it..! He just said he loves me a lot, and after that my Life wasn’t mine anymore..!
 You are caring.. Extremely caring…I am so used to of your possessiveness that I feel if someday u allow me to walk my own.. I myself will beg you to imprison me in your territory.. I have forgotten how to take a single step without U. How stupid is this love..! I am dependent… totally dependent…I am not ME anymore.. I m YOU….Totally YOU..!
 My heart smiles.. When my cell’s screen twinkle with a dreamy tone.. “Life calling”
 I wait for hours for my LIFE to get free .. so that we could talk just for 5 minutes..
 You like cricket.. I started watching cricket..
 You hate biryani.. I stopped cooking it for myself..
 You like long hair. I stopped having hair cuts..
 You said pink suits me.. now I always dress in all shades of Pink..
 You don’t like makeup.. I stopped applying even that slight lip gloss..
 You want me to observe hijab.. I started it as you said so..
 You don’t want a working wife.. I am gona quit my prestigious job..
 You don’t like girls laughing loudly… Now I just smile..
 You don’t like shouting girls.. no matter how serious is the matter.. I always keep my tone low..
 U changed me 360 degree
 After all that.. I just want to kill u when u say “Saira.. Yaar tum bohat badal gaye ho..!!”
 but how can I kill u.. Now I am not ME… I am YOU.. Totally YOU.. How can I kill myself..?!
 My life isn’t mine any more..
 Coz I am not ME anymore..
 Now I am YOU.. totally YOU..
 Love! I hate YOU...

 * Saira*

*ENGAGEMENT *


* SHAADI ki tarhan ENGAGEMENT bhi wohi ‘Laddu’ hai.. jo khaaye wo bhi Pachtaaye.. jo na khaaye wo bhi Pachtaaye :D *
 When the proposal of my “Un” was under consideration.. Ammi was strongly of the view to give them the wedding date directly… But I strongly opposed her..! I wanted to enjoy the beautiful engagement period.. so according to my wish baba said “Haan” to that family.. .. I was so happy…. not because of engagement but because I was expecting some very special treatment from both sides during this Engagement fantasy… I was seeing myself to be treated as a Princess.. :D
 Thanks to bhabi that she took my “Un” number.. & then I started talking to him,… What a pretending period it is… We both pretend as If we are the only mature, sensible and decent on earth :D
 --- But what the heck it is..?! the very next day of my formal engagement my younger brother sadly asked me “Yaar ab raat ko chips kon banaye ga”.. I was shocked to see his ‘Meanness’… I hardly came from this shock.. then after a day he again said “yaar net k pesey b nahe do gi kia’… I said hell to him 1000 times. Ammi keeps on telling me the “Do’s and Don’ts at Susral…ehh!
 Now my every little innocent mistake becomes a huge controversial issue at my home.. I regularly hear my ammi 10 times a day “naak katwaao gi jaa k meri susraal mein”….. [ as If I'll only have her nose issue there :(
 They never care of my innocent emotions .... Irrespective of my feelings.. my younger bro keeps asking me.. “har haftey aaya karo gi kia..??”…. “Tumhari sub cheezen computer mein se delete kardun .. ya kuch copy karo gi”??? …
 My bhabi forgot my helping hand in all home chores…. She said “Yaar ali to itna attach hogaya hai tum se.. ab mujhe tang kia karey ga”…
 I got over emotional.. and one day at dinner I asked ammi that I wanted to eat biryani cooked by her…. Baba immediately said ’ “Kal se Saira tum pakao gi khana” ammi added.. ”haan wahan tray saj k nahe aaye gi”.. “Kal pakana biryaani tum” ….. I was like..”Whatttttttttttttt”?​????? [ I thanked God.. that my fiance hates biryani.. :D]
 how rude they all are..!:(
 & the irony is now when that engagement fantasy has ended.. and the days of my wedding are getting nearer.. and I am getting abnormally emotional….my fiancĂ© has totally changed..!
 Now he never tells me that how much he loves me.. and how many times he misses me… Now just after hello.. he asks straightly.. “aaj kia pakaya.. aur kis kis ne khaya”… “Kitney ghantey online raheen”…. How mean..Now before receiving his call.. I always sms him "Dont ask what my family ate today.. Huh..!!" :(
 I am really confused..... is that 'Laddu' meetha or not..?:/ as long as m Chewing this Laddu.. it is turning KARWA day by day ... :D now I am Waiting for my Wedding day... :D:D
 Speechless :D

 *Saira*

* Every Girl StOry *


Girls.. You are Baba ki Raani.. Mama ki Saheli.. You are the RONAQ of your home.. You are a brighten Star.. You are a Twinkling Light ..You are the reason to smile..
 Always remember a life only comes around Once..Make sure to spend it with the Right person..
 Find a guy who calls you PRETTY instead of HOT..
 Who calls you back just after you hangup phone after fight..
 Who stays awake just to watch you Sleep..
 Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead instead of lips..
 Who holds your hands tightly in front of his family' rather than a gang of his friends in a mall..
 Who gets tense when you cry..
 Who smiles when you laugh.. ;)
 Who takes his parents to your home.. instead of calling you outside..
 Who respects your parents rather than telling you their faults..
 Never hurt your parents.. Always remember.. You might get that dream boy again.. but u wont ever get your Parents, your sweet home again..
 Dont mingle here and there..
 Wait for the right Time to have your Mr RIGHT !:)
 Have FAITH on your FATE..
 Be simply on RESERVE.. for the one who DESERVES..!
 * Saira*
 
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